"I have decided to keep a journal because I believe that my life is important not only to myself but also to others. Perhaps I can stimulate others in my family to do likewise so that the family may be strengthened through deeper communication. Only that material which keynote the central themes of my life and its experiences will be recorded. Certainly it will not always be serious because I enjoy a sense of humor and do not take myself serious enough to think that everything that happens to me is earth-shattering. In fact, I enjoy a good laugh with others when my antics and habits are in review. It would be more than I could ever hope for, if my wonderful and choice family – those now living and those yet to embrace life here upon this earth – would read my thoughts and come to understand me as I desire to understand them. Then a love would develop in all our hearts for our God; for one another; for life; and for the quest for eternal life together. And so whenever a record is being made I pray that the Spirit might be with me that it will be felt by those who read these words in the spirit of truth. Only the decisions that pertain to our relationships with our Father in Heaven and the Savior are important. All other decisions will be of little consequence."

Tuesday, December 24, 1974

Christmas Eve, 1974

It is a few minutes past midnight--2007 years ago the Savior came to this earth to fulfill his mission and complete the Atonement. I now sit in the study in our home looking at the picture of the Savior in Gethsemane and beneath it is a picture of Spencer W. Kimball--our present day prophet. I feel compelled by the Spirit to spend time in prayer and meditation. Perhaps I may stay up all night. It is odd that I should feel such a deep sense of spiritual yearning because we have spent a wonderful family evening together. All of the children have completed their pictures and I will now make a composite to be given to each member of the family for their book of remembrance. I feel that I am on the very brink of having some type of spiritual manifestation that may provide direction or indication to me of my needs as a patriarch to the family. I know the greatness of each of the members of this family and I know that I am to play and important part in helping them reach their potential in becoming choice outstanding people in the Kingdom of God.

My soul is filled with gratitude at this hour--life is sweet and "my world" is filled with so much love. I truly yearn and feel for those who suffer this night. I will turn to the scriptures to search for a closeness to my Father in Heaven and the Savior that I have never known or accomplished before. I pray that the lord will grant me this privilege!!!


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