"I have decided to keep a journal because I believe that my life is important not only to myself but also to others. Perhaps I can stimulate others in my family to do likewise so that the family may be strengthened through deeper communication. Only that material which keynote the central themes of my life and its experiences will be recorded. Certainly it will not always be serious because I enjoy a sense of humor and do not take myself serious enough to think that everything that happens to me is earth-shattering. In fact, I enjoy a good laugh with others when my antics and habits are in review. It would be more than I could ever hope for, if my wonderful and choice family – those now living and those yet to embrace life here upon this earth – would read my thoughts and come to understand me as I desire to understand them. Then a love would develop in all our hearts for our God; for one another; for life; and for the quest for eternal life together. And so whenever a record is being made I pray that the Spirit might be with me that it will be felt by those who read these words in the spirit of truth. Only the decisions that pertain to our relationships with our Father in Heaven and the Savior are important. All other decisions will be of little consequence."

Saturday, March 16, 1974

March 16, 1974



I am just now getting over the terrible feeling of depression that has been with me for the past two weeks. We think at times that we can intellectualize ourselves into a protective insulation from the “hurts” of the world, but this is not true. When we least expect it something happens that pierces the protective armor prepared by the mind and rends the heart. This, seemingly, must be a necessity of life because the Savior points out in Matt 5:4, that “blessed are those who mourn”, this implies those who suffer or who are chastised that they might be humbled and change their lives. So it was with Job!!!
            It has also been impressed upon me today that we have been so concerned about finding the grandparents of Bishop David Evans, that perhaps the cause of the depression has been precipitated by Lucifer and his influence. As a consequence my thoughts have been turned from that which is so important to our family and my progenitors.

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